Thursday, January 29, 2009

Tim's original worship song No. 10 ... Talk To Me

Lately everything has been spinning out of whacked. Although the Holy Spirit has inspired a lot of revelations in my heart, I was kinda distracted and was focusing on something else.

It's not easy to say you want to serve God full-time when you know you have a family and children that depends on you financially. Even more so than now, knowing that my parents is loaning me their entire life's savings to get a house. Causes so much anxiety whenever I think about it. Even their friends are worried that they'll end up with nothing and no one to care for them.  And I don't blame them, looking how this world has become, the only one you can trust is Jesus Christ. So all their friends from their church asked that they sign a contract with me saying that the money is a loan and that I'll be paying them back monthly. It's definitely a good idea for their peace of mind. They should be enjoying their time with their grand children now, not worried about whether they have a place to stay or be taken care of.

So now it comes to the question of whether I should give up the idea of serving God full-time and just go join the work force or should I persevere until there's a breakthrough. Should I have a backup plan and put my trust in 'certainty' than in the 'uncertain'? In fact I went ahead to apply for a job with the government as a Transit Officer. After doing that, I kinda sat back and was asking myself why? I was justifying to myself that it's the most logical thing to do and God can still use me in other ways. Now ... the biggest question is "IS THAT WHAT GOD REALLY WANTS ME TO DO?" Where's a prophet when you need one huh? :P

Anyways, I've got no idea at the moment ... So your prayers will be most appreciated. I've never felt so strongly about serving God as I've been now. But I've never had people dumping their entire life's savings on me either ... hahaha. Btw, just incase ya have not heard, we bought a beautiful house with 5 bedrooms and my parents will be living with me. Praise the Lord!

And that's what brought about me recording this worship song I wrote years back. I totally forgotten about it until lately. Just want to put my trust in God and for Him to speak to me. Do continue to pray and ask God what He wants to tell me and leave a comment. Don't worry, I won't hold ya responsible for my demise :P But would be interesting to know what God has to say through others. God Bless y'all!

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Saturday, January 3, 2009

So What About Quality When There's No Quantity?

This morning I was having a conversation with my mom who's here on a visit from Malaysia. We started talking about buying a land and building a house and why my dad wanted to build instead of buying a ready built one. It's kinda funny how people like to justify what they want by telling you that that's what 'you want'. But I told her it's ok, I'm just happy that God has lead me thus far. It doesn't matter whether it's a ready house or we build, I'll still be happy cause I know that I'm walking in the will of God (so I hope). So gave the entire decision to my wife and my parents. Some may say it's silly, but I think it's a wise thing to do :P

Anyways, somehow during the course of the conversation, the subject stirred drastically. How and why? I've got no idea. But we ended up talking about what my plans are for the future. As I've mentioned before, I'm working towards being a Worship pastor or pastor. While on that topic, we started talking about church and while in the subject of church, started getting some revelation on certain things which I'm very excited about.

I'm sure some of you are curious about the title of this blog. Let me start by saying that this is by no means condemning anyone or organization. It's just my point of view. What I hope to achieve is that I hope it will rock the boat a little to start you thinking a little bit more about God and less about yourself.

How many times have you heard a Christian ministry or church say this ... 'We don't care about Quantity, all we care about is Quality!'. I used to be a traveling minister. I've travelled to most parts of Malaysia, some parts of US, Canada and also Japan. Because of the nature of the ministry I was in, I've also had plenty of opportunities to work with other Christian organizations. I must say I've heard that statement enough times. The thing is, I was so impressed with the pastors and ministers that said it. I was thinking to myself "Wow, that's such a powerful statement. I hope one day I will have that kinda quality". Well, after today ... I must say that I have to seriously rethink this statement.

When I was talking to my mom, I made 2 statements that got me curious. The more I meditate on it, the more I feel convinced about it ... Physical Multiplication and Spiritual Multiplication. Here's the thing ... Is it God's will? Can these 2 be separated? Can we have one without the other? At the end of this blog, I hope to open a new door for you to explore. Here's my view "We need Physical multiplication so that the Spiritual multiplication can be experienced and that causes physical multiplication all over again. YOU CAN'T AND SHOULDN'T SEPARATE THEM!". Also I would like to discuss the danger of falling into the lie of the devil in this matter.

I'm too tired now to go on .... will continue tomorrow .... Selah :)